I am not sure if anyone has found this blog but I thought I would update since its been a while. At 9w/3d I went for an ultrasound. The baby measured 8w/4d but there was no heartbeat. Due to my lack of insurance (I love the healthcare in the U.S.) I have to wait at home to miscarry and then go to the ER for an emergency D&C.
Symptoms started yesterday but now we wait. It is making me crazy that it has taken 2 weeks and I still have morning sickness, big boobs and cravings. I am trying to stay positive but its hard knowing what is coming....like a slow moving train wreck. I am feeling icky so I am off to bed, I will update again soon
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Saturday, April 19, 2008
Scared and a little Neurotic
Well, I am new to blogging but at this point I feel that this might just keep me from going crazy. I am very EARLY into this pregnancy and so far so good. What makes me so scared is that in September 2007 we lost our twin sons. Twin A failed to develop after 15 weeks. Twin B suffered from Omphalocele and as a result from the pull of the organs being outside his body, he would have needed a liver, lung and heart transplant in the first few weeks of life and would have had to live on a ventilator. We made the very difficult decision to end the pregnancy at 16/3.
With that pregnancy I TOLD EVERYONE. Anyone that would listen knew I was pregnant, the checkout lady at the grocery store, other moms in Boo's class,all the neighbors, Levi's boss and other co-workers, the landscaper...You name it, they knew! We had been trying to concieve for over 2 years and then Yahoo!! we were preggers. What could possibly go wrong. Big lesson learned: If something can go wrong....it will likely happen to me.
When we told people we were having twins the immediate question was ALWAYS...what fertility treatment were you using, I told them nothing....Our twins were identical. Just a fluke of nature that my egg split. We felt so blessed having twins. Boo was OVER the moon.
Now that we are pregnant again, we are keeping the news close to the vest. The only people that know are my mom, and 4 close friends. We have decided not to tell anyone, even Boo until we are 16 weeks. I know the average is 12 weeks but since the twins didn't have problems until close to 16 weeks, we thought that was best.
So, my reason for this blog. I need an outlet to share the good and possibly the not so good until I am able to shout from the rooftops WE ARE PREGNANT. I am not sure whom, if anyone will read this but for those who find this.....welcome
With that pregnancy I TOLD EVERYONE. Anyone that would listen knew I was pregnant, the checkout lady at the grocery store, other moms in Boo's class,all the neighbors, Levi's boss and other co-workers, the landscaper...You name it, they knew! We had been trying to concieve for over 2 years and then Yahoo!! we were preggers. What could possibly go wrong. Big lesson learned: If something can go wrong....it will likely happen to me.
When we told people we were having twins the immediate question was ALWAYS...what fertility treatment were you using, I told them nothing....Our twins were identical. Just a fluke of nature that my egg split. We felt so blessed having twins. Boo was OVER the moon.
Now that we are pregnant again, we are keeping the news close to the vest. The only people that know are my mom, and 4 close friends. We have decided not to tell anyone, even Boo until we are 16 weeks. I know the average is 12 weeks but since the twins didn't have problems until close to 16 weeks, we thought that was best.
So, my reason for this blog. I need an outlet to share the good and possibly the not so good until I am able to shout from the rooftops WE ARE PREGNANT. I am not sure whom, if anyone will read this but for those who find this.....welcome
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